‘So Many Questions’
All I ask of you is to understand me.
It pains me so much to know
That even you don’t understand
How it is I feel, not even you
Can read the signs, or look behind the façade.
It pains so much that I wish someday
You will know me like I know you.
I feel just what I feared the most
a pen and a book
are the only ones
understand the meaning behind my words.
And when all my walls come
crumbling down you are all I see!
You make me feel so….
even words cant describe.
What is this that I feel?
Why am I hurting?
Why is it so cold and broken?
Lost somewhere is my cannon ball
the one so hard as stone.
Now I’m left with nothing but this wrecking ball
And cracks within this wall.
Would you turn your back, look the other way
Or would you be besides me,
Even when miles start to form?
But am I worth the struggle
Or just a marionette,
With heartstrings open and bare?
The void in my chest where once was a golden gem,
Is nothing but a rusting ball of flame.
Is that how it should feel to be someone’s princess?
Then why do fairytales paint a picture so red?
What if this is the only way?
What if my departure is the only way I can survive?
Will you still be mine?
Would you still love me?
Tell me why must I question,
The bond between you and me?
Could we be a love story?
Could we make it right?
If I left you right now, would you run away?
Or would you find a way to make me stay?
Am I your muse or just a little puppet,
Lost and broken
once the day is over?
You say love like ours is forever,
But forever in my mind is just an illusion.
And if I let my guard down tonight,
Would you be there
when the sun lights up the sky?
Or will I just be a conquest,
that brightens up your night?
Do you dream of a future?
Do you see past the present?
Or is it just me,
The girl with so many questions.